| tolkien |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|02:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
"all that is gold does not glitter,
not all those who wander are lost:
the old that is strong does not wither,
deep roots are not reached by the frost.
from the ashes a fire shall be woken,
a light from the shadows shall spring;
renewed shall be blade, that was broken:
the crownless again shall be king." |
|
|
| happy life |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|01:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | the pot shop | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | regina spektor | ] |
its halfway between september and october, the leaves are just starting to change,
i love fall. ash and kate are coming up today. i'm making moms soup thearpy.
ry's on his way to oHio with a crazy old lady, in an old tan volvo.
we're meeting up in boston on sunday.
i might start working at the hospital with the possibility of earning a license in social work.
cofffee makes my heart palvatate. but i still drink it.
i love older happy people.
lately i've felt moreso then ever that i have a lot of room to grow and appreciate.
i've always felt before that l've appreciated life a great deal. but now, i feel like i'm missed out on
so much b/c i didn't appreciate the small stuff b/c i was scared; giving into insecurity is by far one of my
biggest faults. but i'm working on that.
i'm no longer a vegitarian. its awful carnage, i know. but no meat makes kt an angery person.
i just finished 'the alchemist'..probably the fastest read in a long time, but by far one of the best novels i've
ever read. reading into omens much more then usual.
"He is richest who is content with the least, for content is the wealth of nature.
-- Socrates |
|
|
| two lovely dragons |
[Sep. 1st, 2006|07:37 am] |
do you ever realize how great love is in an instant and then remember why you love being alive so much.
that happened last nite. it was loverly.
i think ry and i are moving out to the island in a week or two. VISITORS WELCOME!
we have an 8bedie' house.. just think bed and breakfast on an island with surround ocean view... please come and visit.
its going to get so lonely. :S
but it will be cool to be a hermit. i might be getting a part time position at the hospital.. but either way, i'll be happy.
i just ordered some books online.. first time. it was moving.
its official i need to get out' more often, everyone elses live's seem so much more exciting.
i just made a list of all the fun things i did this summer, luckily, with details, it was almost a page long ..
no more 13hr days for this girl. i just quit one of my jobs and had my last day 'cleaning' and i'm thinking of moving along out of
the gallery, its just doesnt seem worth it anymore.
yippi !! |
|
|
| way to much time to think |
[Aug. 24th, 2006|10:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  morose | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stars-look up | ] |
so undenyably sad.
www.tryveg.com
i think i'm going to become a vegitarian. fruit and berries for life.
the myth is lost... unless it is wild... i don't know if i can deal with eating it anymore. |
|
|
| chasing cars and bubbleyum |
[Aug. 24th, 2006|05:44 am] |
where do the people go, when the stores all close?
i am perfectly comfterable sitting here, not being me, remembering what it was like to at one point feel like i had no control of my life circumstance, yet feel completely like myself. now that i feel like i have more control over my life than i ever have before and im not sure i like what i see. i noticed today, that my laugh has changed. its one thing to watch your eyes age, its another to notice how you deal with nervus energy differently than previously recognized. i now have this wierd laugh that appears when someone will do something completely off kilter or i don't know them and i'm trying to deal with their new energy and my sporatic emotional self, the two combined.. can be an intense explosion and the end result is this really qorky laugh. i am starting to really hate people. thats bad, cause i'm probably going to be working at the hospital soon in an environment full of moody people (like myself, mostly on the inside, but now its creeping out).. ugh.. but it will be good b/c i will be able to apply my degree to something (hopefully useful), and see if my millions of dolllars of debt was worth the piece of paper... mmm.
so i'm sitting here at work watching all the wonderful people walking by. buy, buy, by. so exusted.. i've been working 13hr shifts pretty regularly .. they suck. copious amounts. i can see myself becoming more rediculous by the moment.
on a happier note ryan and i bought a mega ton of herbs and hot peper plants today.. so kool. also we got a new addition.. a hammock :) :) :) so excited.
but the bummer is we'll only be there for another month .. then we're moving to an island off the coast of maine for the winter to be care-takers .. which will be interesting.
oh... and i made it to my 21 day destination so i'm drinking coffee again. but not like before..
also i've noticed that ...the ocean appears the most beautiful right before a serious storm, it looks almost as though the world dissipates into this black and white film and then the universe starts shouting... its intensly amazing.
ps.
go to this site:
www.ashesandsnow.org ... you'll be happy you did :)
run run run ! soon you'll catch up with yourself. |
|
|
| summer time in the boothbay' |
[Jul. 20th, 2006|10:04 am] |
working... and when i'm not working, i'm working... and when that stops... i dream about working...
and having the last name of potter'... hmm..
too much time in a pottery shop... naaa'
things are well... still renovating the apt.. put down new floring, painting the walls.. building an empire..the usual..
recooperation has been decent... planing more trips for the future (with the exception of loosing less body parts)
...miss friends. a lot.
working this much and not having a social life makes life not as fun :S
but overalll life is good. cats are happie... and i'm going on vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TOMORROWWW!!!!!!!!!! TO C A N A D A !!!!!!! :) :) :)
To see FRIENDS!!!!!QHSAZKLFJ:LSDJ:S:DFAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAAA!!!! so i'm a little excided...
going to new brunswick ...bay of fundy national park... YEEE!!!! :)
camping for a few days ... should be the shizzel'...
me hopes...
;) more later |
|
|
| today is the day...liquid realization |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|01:22 pm] |
today is the day to change it
everything is going to happen now..
nothing else to stop me
running
feet flying above it all
past the city street lights and dreamers
all the children suddenly awaken
and here i am
for a monday.. its going ok.
week before break, and i feel like i'm breaking
so ready to give it all up, so ready to dream
for the rest of my life.. i guess the breaking pt is when you finally realize what its all about
this wkend was crazy, still recovering.
mmm..seeing home soon gives me hope.
one thing can kill us, but its the one thing that keeps us alive. |
|
|
| its funny the people you can never forget |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|12:15 am] |
Marvin:
it sounds like someone is humming outside
its so dark tonite.. why is transition so hard.. yet its unmistakably waiting patiently every change throughout life? i feel exceptionally vulnerable. i'm really over tired. but i fear i'm only sleeping into nitemares and life feels like a nitemare ... my conscious moreso. i wish i could just feel settled for once. be overwhelmingly happy that i've made it to this pt.. what ever 'this pt' is.. i feel like school has already ended. when i think of grownups i consider it not as a great thing. i think its when pple reach a pt in their lives where they pretend to be settled or fulfilled when really they just forgot about the child inside. i don't consider my parents to be complete grownups. i think of them more as playful adults. . . mature in some aspects, but still feeding into curiosity. i wish i knew what i wanted, purely, just to know outright exactly how i felt ... about anything. i wish i could forget. ok ... i'll stop wishing. b/c really we only regret wishes ...usually
i don't want to grow up....
i'm a toys r us kid. |
|
|
| this semesters over ? |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|07:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
i feel kinda sad thats its all done.
probably just lack of sleep and more caffine then blood going through
my vains. i honest thought this school was trying to kill me.
well.. hasn't happend yet. although good try with 6 exams in 6days.
suck IT! i concured you biOTCH!... god. does it feel relieving to be
done (almost, one MORE f'ing essay).. haha.. haven't wrote A MILLION yet.
seriously.. end of semester, end of another year.. time goes by so quickly.
the more i think about it the more confused i am. i had a dream last night
that i was california, surfing. i think thats where i'm going. it felt so real.
i might take a year and just work / pay off school lowns, and hike the Appalacian Trail
...that would be nice. maybe someday i will go back.. for art or something to apply to
therapy somehow...
everything these days really feels serial. nothing feels real, i feel like at anymoment i'm going to
wake up and realize this was all a dream and have to go back to high school. imagine how much you'd know if you dreamed your whole life, then woke up to realize you get to begin all over again.
...hmm.. i really hate cramming. its official... i feel like i was some how smarter before i started university. sometimes i wonder in what ways it improved my life... i guess i'll learn that later.
i hope i pass everything this semester. :@ |
|
|
| EveryBody Is FREE to FEEL GOOD |
[Dec. 6th, 2005|11:28 pm] |
ok... saturday nite... is going to be a right off of my life
i just want to say i officially fired myself..
YEAH!! i'm part of that crowd of x'ers ;)
pretty cool... all those who were not able to attend are
in definently in my heart.. cause i know when i look at that bling bling
i'm going to remember all the times with those pple who helped me through.
hahaha I'm officially part of the cult!
so now i just got to make it through exam time *barf*
christmas YEAH!!! HOME!!! LOVES!!! :O)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
...good people, great friends, and happy memories make all the difference in the world... |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
travinity's journal